Am i normal????????????????

Question

Am i normal????????????????
when i was i began talking on the phone to a then year old man because i was lonely and i had problems and my parents were very strict and i just wanted to have someone to talk to and make me feel better and so he became that. He would tell me how sweet i was and help me with all of my problems and we would talk about everything and so we began talking eveyday for like months and we were having phone sex alot and he would always ask me for phone sex everytime we would talk and to do him favors by touching my self and he described how he wanted to take my virginity and how we would have sex and how he didnt want to hurt me and that he cared about me alot. We had always planned on getting together so that we could have sex but everytime we tried to get together something else always came up and he didnt want to go to jail or get caught..so we never ended up meeting and after a year of talking to him, i ended up getting a bf and i told him that and he kinda got upset but i told him that we could still talk...but we just couldnt have phone sex anymore and he agreed....so then i began talking to him mybe like or times a week after my bf got with me...but still when i talked to him he waould always find a way to bring up sex..he would ask me if i had sex with my bf or if my bf made me ....and then he would always tell me how hed be here for me and that i deserved to be with a man not a boy....but as time went on i ended up talking to him less and less causei had my bf but i still found my self thinking about him all the time and fantasizing about having sex with him....and so i still talked to him but, not sexually even though he still brings it up...but bottom line me and my bf ended up getting married and i still find myself thinking and talking to this man. He makes me feel so guilty and dirty sometimes but yet i still keep talking to him...i dont want to and i know that what we had was wrong sometimes but is this normall...is it normall that i actually have feeling for that man...i even have his password to his cell phone and i check his messages without him knowing it. I hate myself for feeling this way about him...i just want to get better....i just feel like he abused me..and i want it all to go away cause i love my husband very much and i dont want to have feelings for that guy anymore. Im now and i started talking to him when i was ...so ive been talking to him for years..and i just want to know...if what im going through is normal.....or was i sexually abused? What is wrong with me?

Answer

he was taking advantage of your age. hes a pedofile. losse all contact with him. if you had a daughter and she was doing that and you found out would you be discusted?