Am I going crazy?

Question

Am I going crazy?
Everytime I see people I imagine scissors or sharp things going into their eyes. Even people that I like! Whats happening???? Am I crazy? What should I do?

Answer

It seems like you dont do this every minute of every day, you have these moments where you freak out or have an anxiety attack. And it also may be true, that you go from being alone or isolated, and then you want to enjoy a bit of socializing and you freak out like this, and it polarizes you. I would think it would make your mood swing from extreme to extreme. It sounds very stressful. I think a person could become very disoriented, when you just want to have a good time.brI think no matter how shocking or alarmed it may make you feel, this does not reflect an intention on your part. It sounds like something that comes upon you, like being hit with a brick. You can react, you can feel bad, but you have no control over it. This has got to be draining on you and just wearing you out.brI wonder if you have a bipolar disorder. I cant diagnose you and you would need to see a psychiatrist, but this is probably what this is. You actually have a sodium imbalance. As you are unable to stabilize your sodium level, your moods fluctuate wildly and you have anxiety or panic attacks. Something may be trying to tell you something, but it might not have anything to do with violence or hurting people.brThe next time you do this, try drinking some orange juice or a sports drink and see if that doesnt calm you down. This is not a cure, but it might give you some temporary relief.brI also wonder if you dont have a bad reaction to high heat and humidity. Or if you become tired, but you become more wired and hyper and strung out. If this is true, I am all the more convinced you are bipolar and you need diagnosed. He would just give you a prescription for lithium sodium and you should calm right down and be just fine in a couple of days. It all goes away and you are just as normal as anyone else.brDo some research on bipolar disorder and see if this doesnt sound like you. You didnt say anything much there in your post and you dont reflect much selfknowledge, so you might want to find more words to describe your experience. It doesnt sound premeditated, so I am convinced this is correct.brI hope this helps you.